its been long

its been so long that i last wrote.. few moments earlier i thought of so many things, people, situations and so many lives.... but now i have just questions and only questions????..

i don't know whom to ask and whom not to. i feel like i am asking questions to those whom i should not and not asking to those whom i should .. i feel really exhausted in my mind, inside somewhere where i am so lost, so very lost.. the questions , the answers , the reasons, the logics, the explainations, the excuses, the pretentions, the lies, the love, the hate, and the life ..... everything is just so complicated and i feel so tiny tiny unimportant dot who is just not being able to understand the meaning of the questions, the answers..... the life and firstly the meaning of myself.. sometimes i think that there is no meaning to anything at all, nothing at all...... and its just may be i am the only one who is losing the memory... and strangely i am forgetting what i thought that i would write...! i don't know why...